Five to ten years ago I attempted to start a blog on here and another one on Blogger and Medium. The farthest I got is opening the account. I ran afterwards. Well, in my mind I felt as though I was literally running.
I was scared. I felt as though people were watching me. So many things were going through my mind. I ask myself “are you ready for this?”, “people will know it’s you”, “are you sure you want others to see what you are writing?”, “they will mock you”, “don’t do this girl.” “you’re not ready for this,” “it doesn’t even sound right.” These were the thoughts that flooded my mind.
I was excited about blogging. I had the energy and all but no willpower to push past my fears so I put it off for another time. Not sure if this was procrastination or completely fear or a bit of both.
Many more attempts to continue was futile. And other times all I did was think about it and imagine how lovely it would be for me to be blogging, but I never made any attempt to write because the fear I felt destroyed my prospect to blog. Fear is something that holds many people back. This has been one of my biggest enemies. So much time has passed and I have managed to grow beyond that.
After I decided to change my life there were a few things I needed to deal with. When I started to work on myself my go-to fixer was meditation. By meditating I was able to train my mind to stay in the present. That in turn has enabled me to notice fearful thoughts and feelings when it comes, and so by constantly practising this method, has allowed me to stay with the feeling of fear and identify it and understand what it’s trying to reveal to me instead of leaving it unattended. Meditation has taught me that fear is an emotion trap deep inside of us. and if not dealt with can cripple our chances for so many things in life.
Over the past few months, I have grown a lot. And I said that to say this. One morning I woke up and got out of bed and turn on my laptop while telling myself “today I am starting my blog” I never thought about exploring the best platform for writing. I head to google and typed “wordpress.com.” and as they say, the rest is history.
We have to want to be better to get better, and to be better requires us to work on ourselves. That’s where we all should start. I started and I am still a work in progress and I can only hope to become the best of me. And now, don’t forget to read my recent posts. Comment and share
“Nothing in life is to be feared, it is only to be understood. Now is the time to understand more, so that we may fear less.”Marie Curie